Today was great! I took a nap and woke up full of energy and managed to do 2 essays! wheet! Still below optimum productivity level i know, and i'lls top saying its a good start because.... good starts were supposed to be long ago, now is the time for good going! cheers everyone

Thanks Rising Crew

Have you guys seen Cambridge? The university?

It is absolutely beautiful! Studying in a castle!

Sweet stuff! And on top of all the awesome costumes and lovely environment, you walk out with a degree to die for! HWOW!

And Harvard! all people do is see your university and they slam your resume shut, "YOUUR HIRED!"

And everything just goes up and up and up and... ahhh... yes, something to look forward to

I cant just walk, my legs are jelly, I wanna sprint!

Fly and scream and yes, my head's in a cloud, but I'm flying up, soon to catch up with it!

That's my dream school/ schools. Work hard Charles!


How do I feel?


Absolutely Brilliant!

Econs is over, and so have part of my H3 dreams... nah... nono thats not over. Anyhow, I'd like to say a few things to a few people

First of all :

To my dear friend, oh yes, he actually convinced me that he was a nice guy but... well, your arrogance kicked in a little too hard today didnt it? I'm gonna make you run for your money, run like hell. if you can call someone stupid for doing his exam the way everyone else did, then i think you're quite an asshole. SO much for calling him your friend yes? I'll flame you for who you are now. And if you're ever in need of consolation, I'm here for you, to completely run you down. 

Apart from that, I talked to a sec school friend today, and he's off in melbourne having the time of his life! haha and he told me, that I should be too, thanks for the reminder, I dont need all this stress now.

And I've gotten pretty sick of being pessimistic, murphy's law is boring me tremendously. "I don't know" is not a grey spot, it's called fear of saying yes or no. If you're being convenient about it, then save it.

I think I forgot that I was someone, it's called self debasement, and I've had enough of that too. So im on a diet, a melancholy diet. Time to drop the stress and all the trash, and walk out into the sun.

Block tests have begun today... and well... math was interesting. It appeared I knew what I was doing, but my answers came out all funny so.... I guess maybe i didnt

haha oh wells...

I realised the exam period is the most absolutely worst time for studying, it just doesnt feel right... I mean look at me! haha im here blogging right now!

I have got to stop dreaming. Thou shalt wake up and start doing things! I swear!

I think block results are gonna hit me like a bus, and thou shalt get reeeady for an emotional roller coaster.

Have you ever wondered how open you should be about the way you feel?

On my part, I've got far more interior monologue than dialogue in this play of my life. It would seem I have three interior lines to every one I actually say!

Which is scary, because I then wonder how many people would be left to listen to absolutely everything I think.

We do forget that we do make mistakes too. Notice the fantastic lines that go : we're just human.... and also, i know we're human but... thats just...

Ok that was a leak of interior monologue.

Blogs are personal personal online journals... so how personal is it really?

By now you would/ should have noticed Im just sitting in front of my screen, typing out random thoughts which do not necessarily have to link with each other=)

I am as optimistic as I am pessimistic... that's quite an irony/ paradox/ oxy moron... shucks... What do those words mean again?

I am unsound person, yes , warning to all of you! hahaha , I've got alot on my mind...

So anyhow, do you like extreme people or moderate people? (extremely moderate= moderate)

Do you like people who want to survive, or those who want to fly?

CIGX-M= AD= AE

shucks... ok i should stop using shucks... baets shit though... ok... hmmm 

BEETLES!

haha yes... that'll be better

what am i gonna- yawn...

ok

tiredness dot com...

My head hurts- so does every other part of me...

i'll be off to bed soon... 

When things become cliche, are they boring? or are they right?

So anyway, tell me something interesting everybody!

I feel like crying...

Alright... off too bed!

cheers!

One Afternoon-

Why does it rain when the clouds become heavy?

Why do I cry when this heavy heart weighs me?

Why is it always easier said than done

Why do I wake when Autumn has come?

This midsummer day is far from a dream

These razor sharp rays, split my last standing seams

This not a finger fighting back such bleak gravity

This is a thread, and me hanging for love's eternity

Tis' fire of yours is slipping out of my fingers

Don't blow it out

Scorch my skin for all it takes

Because without it, I'll have nothing to lose

Because there'll be nothing to keep

But will the wind bow it out

I know not ...

not yet

One morning-

Name the sun of these twenty four hours

Epitome of demise, mine or ours

Name it a midnight, in the ending hours

And no morning rise, no summer flowers

Dead knots under state a tongue tied heart

Piece this puzzle and pull it apart

A look could bloom a thousand roses

And fill a thousand doses

A picture says a thousand words

But this word love, paints a thousand Pictures

I thought of this poem, after I watched the doors close

With words hanging in the balance

This poem cannot close...

Not yet

Charles